what's a such day! what's a damn feeling...

It was really a bad starting for a new week. All the worst came up to me. I can’t stand with them either.

From clinical, from friends, from many sites…

So touching at that moment,

I can feel that my heart and my chest were tight when I realized that. I don’t want to think that way, don’t want to see it that hard…

But,

Truth is always the truth. I can’t change anything from that. Feeling was coming up that way so that nothing can change my mind at the moment.

So hopeless,
So painful,
My heart is so hurt at that time.

I can’t even realize that I may have that feeling. Sometimes I felt down, disappointed, set-down from someone doing a bad thing to me…

But…

Not the same feeling at the moment. My heart likes frozen and can’t pump blood to the body.

Cold

Surrounding
and
at the bottom of my soul
my mind
and everything

Sometimes,

Life is hard for me,
I felt upset to someone, about something…

Want

To get over it, soon, very soon…

Hope this feeling will have gone from tomorrow.

Wish

I can cry now to sweep away my sadness and my terrible feeling…